Maybe aiming too high, wanting to move to LA because it looks so much more interesting. The people, the life in general. Nothing ever happens in Twickenham apart from 'Old lady wins Bingo'. When are you ever going to hear that in LA??
I wish i could broaden my horizons instead of being another one of my family stuck in Twickenham because they didnt break out early. I dont want to do that. I want to get out there and everytime someone says 'well how you expecting to do that? you have no money..not even a passport', it just makes me want to do it more. Everyone (near enough) has experienced a different culture and people, and that was just for a couple weeks on holiday. I'd get over the fear of getting on a plane and having to totally start over on my own. I want it that much. But i now understand what my mum was saying about having to stay with family. If i did leave i'd be leaving everything..and thats the only (and probably biggest) thing keeping me back. I dont want to feel guilty and therefore hindering my chance to experience a life for myself. So what if it all went tits up? You only live once.
It all works out in my head, and anyone reading this who knows me well probably just think its me going off on one again beause m on a down day. But i have never, ever in my life wanting something so badly.
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It might be a risk, but a risk is better than a regret isn't it?
ReplyDeleteWhoever posted that comment....what you said is so true. Made me think actually.
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