A search for something..

Still wanting to go to LA, although a talk last night with a family friend showed me that maybe LA wouldnt be the place to live. More of a place to visit, which has sort of made me want to go even more. Ive decided though that i'd rather live somewhere smaller, but still as diverse, like San Francisco or California. 

But, obviously to do all this..im going to need a passport..(present idea(;) because i was offered a trip to Sweden in the summer by my best friend, and i wouldnt want to miss out on the chance to finally go on a plane while im still at that age where i dont really have any 'fears'. 

To be honest i havent got much to write about today..perhaps there will be more tomorrow with the first day back at college. Im going to my Dad's work this afternoon, strangely excited..

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Scared of Distance?

Maybe aiming too high, wanting to move to LA because it looks so much more interesting. The people, the life in general. Nothing ever happens in Twickenham apart from 'Old lady wins Bingo'. When are you ever going to hear that in LA??
I wish i could broaden my horizons instead of being another one of my family stuck in Twickenham because they didnt break out early. I dont want to do that. I want to get out there and everytime someone says 'well how you expecting to do that? you have no money..not even a passport', it just makes me want to do it more. Everyone (near enough) has experienced a different culture and people, and that was just for a couple weeks on holiday. I'd get over the fear of getting on a plane and having to totally start over on my own. I want it that much. But i now understand what my mum was saying about having to stay with family. If i did leave i'd be leaving everything..and thats the only (and probably biggest) thing keeping me back. I dont want to feel guilty and therefore hindering my chance to experience a life for myself. So what if it all went tits up? You only live once.
It all works out in my head, and anyone reading this who knows me well probably just think its me going off on one again beause m on a down day. But i have never, ever in my life wanting something so badly.

Why girls should wear shirts not skirts Pt2

This is going to be brief. But my basic point will be this: Its been shown in documentaries that i've seen that girls who dress in more masculine clothes have more of a sense of power in life and what they do. If you take a typical girl who wears feminine clothes and stick them into some baggy jeans, converse and a hoodie..they will definitly act different (once they have gotten over the fact they dont really look like a girl anymore). On the other hand, i know girls that are straight..wear boy-ish clothes..and STILL attract men/boys as much as the next tall blonde in heels. So WHY are girls so scared of changing how they dress? even if its just to see what happens?....because they are sheep.

I admire the girls that do dress different..and STILL look amazingly fit.

Why chicks should wear shirts not skirts..

It is known in the 'teenage world', that the marjority of males will be attracted to girls with short skirts and low tops. Its natural for them to do so. I totally understand (probably more than the next person) that they cant help it and its just instinct to them. Theyve been bred to it from way back in time to find a female who is aestically pleasing and to try thier best to attract them. But why do girls, also, still feel the need to dress in clothes that could be mistaken as 'too small'? I dont want to sound like so 'dyke dictator' because im not, and dear god i hope there is someone that agrees with this. 

From what i have observed in the past 3 years (mostly) is that girls will dress like this to have the same effect as guys that want to attract a female. For example, a girl will wear a low top infront of a guy to attract him, same way as a guy would wear a tight top and nice smelling deodorant to attract a girl. Also, from observation i have seen that both ways (guy to girl/girl to guy) are very powerful.

I know that there are natural reasons why i guy wouldnt be as attracted to a girl in a shirt and jeans, but it doesnt mean that girls should conform to this. Most of the humans on this planet are sheep. And also doomed. They dont seem to have the part of the brain that says 'dont do what they do, do it differently'...

So for gods sake people!..and girls (; WEAR A SHIRT and some skinny jeans and some converse! 

Ill get back to you with the reasons why you should, but my dinners ready (;

A rather small Hello

I was cycling on my way back home today, through the park near my house and i thought to myself briefly..'people that did nothing with thier lives get forgotten, nobody will ever know they existed'. I know this is an obvious little analogy (or whatever you want to call it), but it is very true, and quite scary. I dont want to be forgotten, i want to be remembered! I dont want to die and just be another skeleton in the ground. Wether this sounds selfish or 'big-headed' i dont know..but it makes perfect sense.

For starters, i know im not special. Atall. Just another person. So i found it understandably hard to think of something that i could be remembered by, something to leave and hopefully imprint SOMEBODYS memory. 

I know anything is possible, and so i will start to write this blog and hope people come by it and start to read. And if that fails, then i will sure as hell find something else.

But for the time being, i am a 16 year old girl attending full time ed at college. Taking Media, English Lang&Lit, Maths GCSE and Sociology. Theres not much to me, i just have my own opinions. I DO care what other people think of me but i think someone  has to be naive to not care. 

Some hate me, some love me..and some just don't know yet :S